I had started buying maternity clothes. I was enquiring about maternity leave at work.
I was looking forward to having another son and wondering how I would cope with M and the new baby.
Then a day later my waters broke and I learnt what pPROM stands for.
The women I was a year ago doesn't feel like me any more. I am somebody very different now. Time has helped immensely. From the outside I am no different to the women I used to be. But all the time in the world will never bring me back to who I was a year ago today.
I am not angry. I am not sad (well alright, occasionally I am). I am just different.