When people ask how I am I reply "okay" but the truth is I have a new okay, a sub-standard one compared to my old okay. Why? My second pregnancy was complicated by preterm Premature Rupture of the Membranes (pPROM) at just over 21 weeks resulting in the death of my son at just over 31 weeks. Since then I have had two miscarriages. This is the continuing story of my new okay.
Friday, 8 July 2011
Tomorrow
Had he survived Orson would have been one year old tomorrow.
Not sure what we will do tomorrow yet. What on earth is an appropriate thing to do to commemorate your son's death? I think there is nothing appropriate.
I have found myself re-reading my "For Orson" page today. My memories of Orson are all listed there. All written a long time ago shortly after Orson's death. I was scared I would forget if I didn't write everything down. Indeed some of the memories had slipped my mind so I am glad I have this record of them to jog my memory.
I tried to look through the list of memories to pick one that stands out and I cannot. They are all important to me.
I miss him.
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Beautiful handprints and footprints....
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i LOVE that you have these prints. We also have some from our 2nd lost little one. I look at them daily...they make me smile. It's beautiful.
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