Saturday 24 December 2011

Christmas Eve thoughts

I can't believe I am about to celebrate my second Christmas since Orson died. It has been a long time but I still remember everything so clearly. It still seems very recent.

I am incredibly lucky to have M and for him Christmas will be happy and fun but it is tinged with sadness because we should also have an 18 month old to open presents tomorrow. This time last year I felt sad but hopeful, I was pregnant and I thought we would have a younger brother or sister for M and Orson by now.

This Christmas isn't as happy as it should be.

1 comment:

  1. I'm sorry that your Christmas is tinged with sadness. I can relate to feeling like the last two Christmas have not been what they should be.

    Hope 2012 is a year to celebrate, and I hope it will be a Christmas that's happier than this one!

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